your face, your laugh, you

It just so happens to be Valentines Day.

I wish I would have visited your grave today.

Although, I'm only talking to the ground

I just feel closer to you.

I miss being close to you.

I miss seeing your face,

not in pictures but in 3d

right in front of me.

While there is no longer a gaping hole in my chest

I still miss you love.

Your laugh I no longer hear,

though, I crave its sound.

o my soul!

If I'm honest with you,
if I'm honest with myself..
I've been hanging on to the past.
Letting go of it more everyday.
But i drug my past around.
like center blocks tied to my feet.

Moving forward doesn't mean forgetting you..
It just means I'm free again!

Praise the Lord, o my soul.

theres no excuses to make for myself.
no, this isn't what i wanted..
no its not what i expected.

But you have found rest,
even as you lie in death

-Isaiah 57:1-2

The Righteous perish, and no one takes it to heart,

the devout are taken away

and no one understands that the righteous

are taken away to be spared from evil.

Those who walk uprightly enter into peace

they find peace as they lie in death.

This is a verse I clinged to when he died..

and today Elysia reminded me of it.

As the verse rolled off her lips,

they brought me comfort.

Sometimes I get selfish,

but you have peace..

You were taken away,

but your where you have longed to be!

PRAISE THE LORD!

my love, you are happy!

now its my time to find rest in the Lord too, even down here ;)

I miss you Christopher.