2010 bites

We just got the call..
my mammaw may have cancer.
I answer the phone to my aunt crying..

Was it the cigarettes,
that no one could pry from your fingers?


Its sad.
but the truth is, I can't even cry.
I don't really know how to be sad
about anything other than Chris anymore.

My heart is hardened to feel that emotion.
melt my heart..


2010 bites.

it was only a dream

Your sitting next to me
smiling ear to ear
I say "I'm glad your alive"
and you reply "me too"
You lean over and kiss me on the cheek
you ask me if I want to be with you
and I instantly reply with a yes

then I wake up..

I just wish it wasn't too late for that miracle.